All photography by Chris Sligh
husband ... leader ... father ... friend
lover ... pastor ... follower ... creative
I wanted success and I wanted leadership power because it soothed some piece of me deep inside ... and piece marked by shame and a feeling of unworthiness. I was competitive and wanted to win because winning (and in converse losing) said something about me; something deep and true about me. If I won, if I was successful I could be worth something in life. If I was not successful, then I couldn't.
Till one day I came to understand who God truly is to me. When my worth is found in my success or vice versa, then as Paul puts it in Galatians 2: "If I rebuild what I tore down, I prove myself a transgressor."
Now I am crucified with Christ. My success is in Him. My failure is covered by Him.
So - in response to such love, such grace, my goal is to be a husband, a leader, a father, a friend, a lover, a pastor, a follower and a creative and all of it with love. My music, my leadership, my writing - if I am not proving to those around me that I love them, then I am not succeeding in what I'm called to.
Success... excellence - these things are great things. But they are not fruit of the Spirit. The fruit of the Spirit is love.
So - I love.